James Van Der Beek relocated his family to a new city during the height of the pandemic. They’ve since settled in, and are now focusing on supporting the actor as he battles a serious illness.

In November 2024, actor James Van Der Beek shared troubling news about his health, revealing that he’s fighting cancer. Fortunately, he isn’t facing the disease alone, as he has the support of his wife, Kimberly Van Der Beek, and their children: Olivia, Joshua, Annabel, Emilia, Gwendolyn, and Jeremiah.

Opening up about his diagnosis, the 47-year-old star confessed, “I have colorectal cancer. I’ve been privately dealing with this diagnosis and have been taking steps to resolve it, with the support of my incredible family.”

“There’s reason for optimism, and I’m feeling good,” he added. According to the American Cancer Society, colorectal cancer starts in the rectum or colon, parts of the large intestine within the digestive system.

Taking to her Instagram Story, Kimberly expressed her support for her husband in a heartfelt post. Over the post, set to Sneha’s “So This Is Love,” she tagged her husband and wrote, “Hi baby.”

With a picture of two Northern Cardinals feeding each other, the actor’s wife appeared to draw a parallel between themselves and the birds. The post read, “Northern Cardinals, the ‘romantic’ birds that mate for life, travel together, sing before nesting, and feed each other seed beak-to-beak during courtship.”

Meanwhile, James is facing his diagnosis in the Texas home that he and Kimberly leased during the height of the pandemic.

Moving to Texas

On September 30, 2020, amid the pandemic, James shared Instagram images of the new house his family moved into in Texas. His wife and children gathered around a tree in one picture.

In another, he and Kimberly posed in front of the fireplace; and the last photo showed some of the children sitting in an empty kitchen.

The actor captioned the post, “Sometimes a fuller life begins with an empty house.” He continued, “Leaving Los Angeles incredibly grateful for all the friends and memories we’ve made here. Onto the next big adventure! ❤️😊”

In another post, the star appeared in the kitchen as his wife noted he was cooking dinner while holding one of their toddlers.

The following month, Kimberly shared an Instagram video of herself discussing the move, which then included only five children and a few puppies.

She explained she was exhausted from managing the move, looking after the children, and living through the COVID-19 pandemic. Kimberly expressed her love for Texas while noting that Los Angeles and Beverly Hills had treated them well during their time there, providing easy access to amenities.

“But it was feeling really tight for a family of five kids. We had a pretty modest-sized backyard, no real grass to like scoot on or ride bikes,” she added. They moved there to be close to the local park, but unfortunately, the children couldn’t climb trees, ride bikes or scooters, or play ball due to the concrete surroundings.

Kimberly felt they were restricted and found that Texas offered the space they needed for their growing family. She appreciated that their new home sat on 36 acres and was beautiful.

The plan was to try Texas for a year, with the house owners allowing them freedom to make it their own. Kimberly shared that she’d been trying to convince James to leave Los Angeles for years, but his work commitments made it difficult.

With the pandemic, they realized much could be done digitally. Initially, they considered moving to an area outside Atlanta, but Kimberly had three consecutive dreams encouraging her to move to Texas.

Before moving, she asked the universe for a sign, which came when a friend opened the door wearing a red cap with “Texas” on it, and then came the dreams. The couple decided to visit Texas for their tenth anniversary to explore the area and fell in love with it.

They began turning the property into a family compound, with Kimberly’s then-pregnant sister and her husband moving in as well. Alongside the expansive land in Spicewood, Texas, the Van Der Beeks also have their own private barn. Here’s a glimpse of their home.

What James’s House Looks Like Outside

In December 2020, the exterior of the house appeared in an Instagram post by James. His wife was seen riding a four-wheeler with one of their children, with wooden buildings visible in the background.

On August 1, 2021, which was also James and Kimberly’s 11th wedding anniversary, their family graced the cover of “Austin Life” magazine, showcasing their new home. By Mother’s Day 2023, the couple had welcomed their sixth child!

The star honored his wife by sharing several Instagram pictures of her pregnancy and their youngest child at their new Texas house.

In June of that year, she shared part of the stunning outdoor living space, which includes their swimming pool.

One photo showed her husband tossing one of their children into the air by the pool.

In 2024, on James’s birthday, which coincided with International Women’s Day, Kimberly celebrated him by sharing various photos of the two of them.

One of the photos captured them posing together outdoors.

In April, fans got a glimpse of Texas sunsets through Kimberly’s post, which also showcased the children riding their bikes on the property.

The family also enjoys long walks on the property, as seen in a Father’s Day post in 2024 dedicated to the father of six.

Embracing her country roots, Kimberly began gardening and raising three Heritage Welsummers chicks on the land.

During spring, the ranch came alive with vibrant flowers.

The family’s dogs also thrived on the property, growing bigger by the day.

The Van Der Beek children even got to play with their neighbors’ horses.

For Halloween each year, James and his children dress up and pose outdoors to showcase their costumes.

And on some evenings, the family gathers around a fire to spend quality time together.

Besides the pool, the backyard also features a tram overlooking the Pedernales River.

The grounds also include caretaker quarters and guest cabins, while the main house has a wooden deck, spa, and built-in barbecue. Now, let’s take a look inside.

What James’s House Looks Like Inside

Over the years, James and Kimberly have shared glimpses of the home’s interior on Instagram.

For instance, in March 2021, the actor posted photos in the kitchen, and the brick-walled bathroom appeared in a 2023 Mother’s Day post.

When Kimberly celebrated her youngest child’s birthday in October 2024, she shared several images showcasing the interior of their Texas home.

In one post, a little girl was seen in what appeared to be a sitting area.

The star’s wife mentioned that their new location offered warm winds, walks on the driveway, and the chance to feed kitchen scraps to their chickens.

One photo also showed James and Kimberly’s bedroom.

“We don’t have a son anymore.” When Emily’s husband returns from school pickup with a stranger’s child instead of their son, her world implodes. His chilling explanation only deepens her worry and leaves her wondering if her husband has gone too far.

A headache had been pounding behind my eyes all afternoon, each throb making the world pulse like a bad dream. When Michael offered to pick up Ethan from kindergarten, I could’ve cried from relief.

Between the budget reports at work and the constant worry about my mom’s declining health, my brain felt ready to explode.

“You’re sure?” I asked, already sinking into the couch cushions. “I know you have that conference call with Singapore…”

“I’ll reschedule.” He grabbed his keys, the metal jangling too loud in my sensitive ears. “The market analysis can wait. Get some rest, Em. You look like death warmed over.”

“Always the charmer,” I muttered.

Michael tended to make snap decisions, which bugged me occasionally, but at least today it worked in my favor.

I must’ve dozed off because the next thing I knew, the front door was creaking open. Something felt wrong. The usual thunder of Ethan’s footsteps was missing, replaced by an eerie silence that made my skin crawl.

There was no excited chatter about playground adventures, no backpack hitting the floor with a thud, and no demands for after-school snacks.

I pushed myself up, squinting against the afternoon light. Michael stood in the doorway, but instead of our son’s Spider-Man backpack and mess of brown curls, I saw a tiny girl with braids, wearing clothes that looked a size too small.

Her brown eyes darted around our living room like a trapped animal, taking in the framed family photos and Ethan’s scattered Legos.

“Where’s Ethan?” My voice came out scratchy and uncertain. The pounding in my head intensified like a drum beating out a warning I couldn’t quite understand.

Michael’s face was blank, eerily calm. “We don’t have a son anymore.”

The words hit me like a physical blow. “What?” I stumbled to my feet, headache forgotten. “What are you talking about? Where is our son?”

He set the little girl down on the couch, his movements deliberate and controlled. “This is Mia. She’ll be staying with us for a while.”

“Michael.” I grabbed his arm, forcing him to look at me.

My fingers dug into his sleeve hard enough to leave marks. “Tell me where our son is right now.”

“He’s safe,” Michael said, his voice cold in a way I’d never heard before. “He’s with Mia’s family. And he’s staying there until he learns some valuable lessons about kindness and gratitude.”

“What did you do?” The room spun around me, and I had to grip the back of the couch to stay upright. “You can’t just… that’s kidnapping! Have you lost your mind?”

“It’s not kidnapping. I spoke with Mia’s mother. We agreed this would be good for both children.” He loosened his tie, a gesture that usually meant he was settling in at home. The normalcy of it made me want to scream.

“Good for—” I broke off, staring at the little girl who sat perfectly still, her hands folded in her lap. She looked like she was trying to disappear into the cushions. “Michael, this is insane. What did Ethan do that was so terrible?”

His jaw tightened. “He’s been bullying Mia. He made fun of Mia’s cardboard dollhouse and called it trash. And he told everyone her family must be too poor to buy real toys.”

He ran a hand through his hair, messing up his usually perfect parting. “But it’s more than that. Lately, he throws fits when he doesn’t get exactly what he wants. He broke his new tablet last week because the game wouldn’t load fast enough.”

Michael looked me dead in the eye then and said, “Our son has become entitled, Emily. Spoiled. He needs to learn what it’s like on the other side.”

I sank onto the couch, my mind racing.

Yes, Ethan could be selfish sometimes — what five-year-old wasn’t? We’d been working on it, trying to teach him about sharing and gratitude. But this…

“There had to be better ways to handle this,” I muttered. “Timeout, taking away privileges—”

“Those don’t work anymore.” Michael’s voice softened slightly. “Em, he needs to understand. Really understand. Words aren’t enough. Sometimes you have to feel something to learn from it.”

I looked at Mia again.

She was thin, with careful eyes that seemed too old for her face. When she caught me watching, she gave me a tiny, hesitant smile that broke my heart.

“Hi, Mia,” I said gently. “Are you hungry?”

She nodded, and something in my chest twisted. I knew Michael was wrong about this, but I also knew that look. It was the look of a child who wasn’t used to being asked what they needed.

“Let’s get you something to eat,” I said, standing up.

Once I’d settled Mia in the kitchen with a plate of chicken nuggets and fries, I pulled Michael aside for a serious adult conversation.

“I still can’t believe you did this without consulting me,” I said in a low voice. “It was impulsive and wrong. That little girl is so confused, and I bet Ethan is, too. And I’ll only agree to this experiment if we go over to Mia’s house today and explain everything properly to Ethan.”

Michael nodded. “You’re right, it was impulsive, but this will teach Ethan gratitude and humility in a way we never could. You’ll see.”

The drive to Mia’s house felt surreal. We passed from our neighborhood of manicured lawns and SUVs into a part of town where apartment buildings with broken windows loomed over littered sidewalks.

A group of men huddled around a burning trash can, and I found myself checking that the car doors were locked.

Mia’s house was small, with peeling paint and a chain-link fence. The yard was neat though, with carefully tended flowers growing in old coffee cans.

Inside, I found my son sitting on a worn couch, his eyes red from crying. When he saw me, he launched himself into my arms with such force that we nearly fell.

“Baby,” I whispered, holding him tight. “I need you to listen to me, okay?”

I pulled back to look in his eyes, those familiar hazel eyes that usually sparkled with mischief. “What you did to Mia wasn’t kind and I know you could do better. Your dad and I love you so, so much that we want to help you be better, okay? This… this swap is to help you understand why kindness matters.”

He nodded, lower lip trembling. “I’m sorry, Mommy. Can I come home now?”

My heart cracked. “Not yet, sweetheart. But soon.”

Over the next few days, something shifted. Ethan helped Mia’s mom with dishes and laundry, learning how much work goes into keeping a home running when you can’t afford a cleaning service.

He played with Mia’s siblings, sharing the few toys they had. He watched Mia’s mom count out food stamps at the grocery store and saw how she stretched every dollar until it screamed.

Meanwhile, Mia bloomed in our house like a flower finally getting sun. She drew pictures, played with Ethan’s games, and slowly began to trust that there would always be enough food at dinner.

The first time I made pancakes for breakfast, her eyes went wide with wonder.

After a week away, I came home to the strange and unsettling sight of my kids sleeping on the cold hallway floor. Heart pounding, I searched for answers, only to find my husband missing and odd noises coming from the kids’ room. What I uncovered next left me furious — and ready for a fight!

I’d been away on a business trip for a week, and let me tell you, I was itching to get home. My boys, Tommy and Alex, were probably bouncing off the walls waiting for me.

I mean, a week is practically forever when you’re 6 and 8. And Mark? Well, I figured he’d be glad to hand the reins back to me. He’s a great dad, don’t get me wrong, but he’s always been more of the fun parent than the responsible one.

As I pulled into our driveway at midnight, I couldn’t help but grin. The house was dark and quiet, just as it should be at this ungodly hour.

I grabbed my suitcase and tiptoed to the front door, keys jingling softly in my hand.

The lock clicked open, and I stepped inside, ready to collapse into bed. But something was… wrong.

My foot hit something soft, and I froze. Heart pounding, I fumbled for the light switch. When the hall lit up, I almost screamed.

Tommy and Alex were sprawled out on the floor, tangled up in blankets like a couple of puppies. They were fast asleep, but their faces were smudged with dirt, and their hair was sticking up in all directions.

“What the hell?” I whispered, my mind racing. Had there been a fire? A gas leak? Why weren’t they in their beds?

I crept past them, afraid to wake them up until I knew what was going on. The living room was a disaster zone, littered with pizza boxes, soda cans, and what looked suspiciously like melted ice cream on the coffee table. But no sign of Mark.

My heart was doing the cha-cha in my chest as I made my way to our bedroom. Empty.

The bed was still made, like it hadn’t been slept in today. Mark’s car was in the driveway, so where was he?

That’s when I heard it. A faint, muffled sound coming from the boys’ room. I tiptoed over, my imagination running wild. Was Mark hurt? Had some psycho broken in and tied him up?

I pushed the door open, inch by inch, and…

“What. The. Actual—” I bit my tongue, remembering the kids were just down the hall.

There was Mark, headphones on, controller in hand, surrounded by empty energy drink cans and snack wrappers. But that wasn’t even the craziest part.

The boys’ room had been transformed into some kind of gamer paradise. A massive TV took up one wall, there were LED lights everywhere, and I’m pretty sure that monstrosity in the corner was a mini-fridge.

I stood there, mouth hanging open, as the rage built up inside me like a volcano about to blow. Mark hadn’t even noticed me yet, too engrossed in whatever game he was playing.

I stomped over and yanked the headphones off his head. “Mark! What the hell is going on?”

He blinked at me, looking dazed. “Oh, hey babe. You’re home early.”

“Early? It’s midnight! Why are our children sleeping on the floor?”

He shrugged, reaching for his controller again. “Oh, it’s fine. The boys were happy sleeping outside. They thought it was an adventure.”

I snatched the controller away. “An adventure? They’re not camping, Mark! They’re sleeping on our dirty hallway floor!”

“Come on, don’t be such a buzzkill,” he said, trying to grab the controller back. “Everything’s under control. I’ve been feeding them and stuff.”

“Feeding them? You mean the pizza boxes and ice cream in the living room?” I could feel my blood pressure rising with every word. “And what about baths? Or, I don’t know, their actual beds?”

Mark rolled his eyes. “They’re fine, Sarah. Lighten up a bit.”

That’s when I lost it.

“Lighten up? LIGHTEN UP? Our children are sleeping on the floor like animals while you play video games in their room! What is wrong with you?”

“Nothing’s wrong with me,” he huffed. “I’m just trying to have a little me-time. Is that so terrible?”

I took a deep breath, trying not to scream. “You know what? We’re not doing this right now. Go put the boys in their beds. Now.”

“But I’m in the middle of—”

“NOW, Mark!”

He grumbled but got up, shuffling past me.

I watched him pick up Tommy, who stirred a little but didn’t wake up. As Mark carried him to bed, I couldn’t help but think how alike they looked: one actual child and the man acting like one.

I scooped up Alex, my heart breaking a little at how dirty his face was. As I tucked him into bed, I made a decision. If Mark wanted to act like a child, then that’s exactly how I’d treat him.

The next morning, I put my plan into action.

While Mark was in the shower, I snuck into the man cave he’d created and unplugged everything. Then I got to work.

When he came downstairs, hair still wet, I was waiting for him with a big smile. “Good morning, sweetie! I made you breakfast!”

He looked at me suspiciously. “Uh, thanks?”

I set a plate in front of him. In the middle was a Mickey Mouse-shaped pancake with a smiley face made of fruit. His coffee was in a sippy cup.

“What’s this?” he asked, poking at the pancake.

“It’s your breakfast, silly! Now eat up, we have a big day ahead of us!”

After breakfast, I unveiled my masterpiece, a giant, colorful chore chart plastered on the fridge. “Look what I made for you!”

Mark’s eyes widened. “What the hell is that?”

“Language!” I scolded. “It’s your very own chore chart! See? You can earn gold stars for cleaning your room, doing the dishes, and putting away your toys!”

“My toys? Sarah, what are you—”

I cut him off. “Oh, and don’t forget! We have a new house rule. All screens off by 9 p.m. sharp. That includes your phone, mister!”

Mark’s face went from confused to angry. “Are you kidding me? I’m a grown man, I don’t need—”

“Ah, ah, ah!” I wagged my finger. “No arguing, or you’ll have to go to the timeout corner!”

For the next week, I stuck to my guns. Every night at 9, I’d shut off the Wi-Fi and unplug his gaming console.

I even tucked him into bed with a glass of milk and read him “Goodnight Moon” in my most soothing voice.

His meals were served on plastic plates with little dividers. I cut his sandwiches into dinosaur shapes and gave him animal crackers for snacks. When he complained, I’d say things like, “Use your words, honey. Big boys don’t whine.”

The chore chart was a particular point of contention. Every time he completed a task, I’d make a big show of giving him a gold star.

“Look at you, putting your laundry away all by yourself! Mommy’s so proud!”

He’d grit his teeth and mutter, “I’m not a child, Sarah.”

To which I’d reply, “Of course not, sweetie. Now, who wants to help make cookies?”

The breaking point came about a week into my little experiment. Mark had just been sent to the timeout corner for throwing a fit about his two-hour screen time limit. He sat there, fuming, while I calmly set the kitchen timer.

“This is ridiculous!” he exploded. “I’m a grown man, for God’s sake!”

I raised an eyebrow. “Oh? Are you sure about that? Because grown men don’t make their children sleep on the floor so they can play video games all night.”

He deflated a little. “Okay, okay, I get it! I’m sorry!”

I studied him for a moment. He did look genuinely remorseful, but I wasn’t going to let him off the hook when I had one last blow to deliver.

“Oh, I accept your apology,” I said sweetly. “But I’ve already called your mom…”

Brent’s world shatters when his wife gives birth to a baby with dark skin, sparking shock and accusations in the delivery room. As doubt and betrayal threaten to tear their family apart, Brent must make a choice that will test the strength of their love and trust forever.

After five years of trying, Stephanie and I were finally about to be parents. Stephanie’s hand gripped mine like a vice as she rode out another contraction, but her face was serene and focused.

Our families hovered near the door, giving us space but staying close enough that they could rush in as soon as the baby arrived.

The doctor gave me a reassuring nod, and I squeezed Stephanie’s hand.

“You’re doing great, babe,” I whispered.

She shot me a quick smile, and then it was time. Time for everything we’d hoped for, worked for, to finally happen.

When the first cry pierced the air, I felt a rush of relief, pride, and love all tangled together. I didn’t even realize I was holding my breath until I let it out in a shaky exhale.

Stephanie reached out, eager to hold our baby, but as the nurse laid the tiny, squirming bundle into her arms, something in the room shifted.

Stephanie stared at the baby, her face draining of color, eyes wide with shock.

“That’s not my baby,” she gasped, the words catching in her throat. “That’s not my baby!”

I blinked, not understanding. “What do you mean? Steph, what are you talking about?”

She shook her head, even as the nurse explained that they hadn’t cut the umbilical cord yet, so this was definitely our baby. She looked like she wanted to shove it away.

“Brent, look!” Her voice was rising, panic seeping into every syllable. “She’s… she’s not… I never…”

I looked down at our baby and my world tilted. Dark skin, soft curls. I felt like the ground had just been ripped out from under me.

“What the hell, Stephanie?” I didn’t recognize my voice, sharp and accusing, slicing through the room.

The nurse flinched, and from the corner of my eye, I noticed our families, frozen in shock.

“It’s not mine!” Stephanie’s voice cracked as she looked at me, eyes brimming with tears. “It can’t be. I never slept with anyone else. Brent, you must believe me, I never—”

The tension in the room was suffocating, thick, and choking, as everyone quietly slipped away, leaving just the three of us. I should’ve stayed, but I couldn’t bear the betrayal.

“Brent, wait!” Stephanie’s voice rang out from behind me, broken and desperate, as I marched toward the door. “Please, don’t leave me. I swear to you, I’ve never been with anyone else. You’re the only man I’ve ever loved.”

The raw honesty in her voice made me stop. I turned to look at her. This was the woman I’d loved for years, the woman who had stood by me through every trial and heartbreak. Could she really be lying to me now?

“Steph,” I said, my voice softening despite the storm raging inside me. “This doesn’t make sense. How… how do you explain this?”

“I don’t understand it either, but please, Brent, you have to believe me.”

I looked back at the baby in her arms, and for the first time, really looked. The skin and hair were still a shock. But then I saw it: She had my eyes. And a dimple on her left cheek, just like me.

I closed the distance between us and reached out to cup Steph’s cheek. “I’m here. I don’t know what’s going on, but I’m not leaving you. We’ll figure this out together.”

She collapsed against me, sobbing, and I held my wife and my daughter as tightly as I could. I’m not sure how long we stayed like that, but eventually, Stephanie started to nod off. The long hours of labor and the stress of our baby’s shocking appearance had taken a toll on her.

I gently untangled myself from them and murmured, “I just need a minute. I’ll be right back.”

Stephanie looked up at me, her eyes puffy and red, and nodded. I knew she was scared I wouldn’t come back, but I couldn’t stay in that room any longer. Not with the way my mind was spinning.

I stepped out into the hallway, the door clicking softly behind me, and sucked in a deep breath, but it didn’t help. I needed more than just air. I needed answers, clarity, something to make sense of the chaos that had just torn through my life.

“Brent,” a voice called, sharp and familiar, breaking through my thoughts like a knife.

I looked up to see my mother standing near the window at the end of the hall, arms crossed tightly over her chest. Her face was set in a hard, disapproving line, the kind that used to send shivers down my spine as a kid when I knew I’d messed up.

“Mom,” I greeted her, but my voice was flat, emotionless. I didn’t have the energy for whatever lecture she was about to deliver.

She didn’t waste any time. “Brent, you can’t stay with her after this. You saw the baby. That’s not your child. It can’t be.”

“She is my child, I’m sure of it. I—” My voice faltered because the truth was, I wasn’t entirely sure. Not yet. And that doubt… God, that doubt was eating me alive.

Mom moved closer, her eyes narrowing. “Don’t be naive, Brent. Stephanie has betrayed you, and you need to wake up to that fact. I know you love her, but you can’t ignore the truth.”

Her words hit me like a punch to the gut. Betrayed. I wanted to shout at my mother, to tell her she was wrong, but the words stuck in my throat. Because some small, cruel part of me was whispering that maybe she was right.

“Mom, I… I don’t know,” I admitted, feeling the ground start to slip away from beneath my feet. “I don’t know what to think right now.”

She softened, just a little, reaching out to touch my arm. “Brent, you need to leave her. You deserve better than this. She’s clearly not who you thought she was.”

I pulled away from her, shaking my head. “No, you don’t get it. This isn’t just about me. That’s my wife and daughter in there. I can’t just walk away.”

Mom gave me a pitying look. “Brent, sometimes you have to make hard decisions for your own good. You deserve the truth.”

I turned away from her. “Yeah, I do deserve the truth. But I’m not making any decisions until I have it. I’m going to get to the bottom of this, Mom. And whatever I find out, I’ll deal with it. But until then, I’m not giving up on Stephanie.”

She sighed, clearly dissatisfied with my response, but she didn’t push further. “Just be careful, Brent. Don’t let your love for her blind you to reality.”

With that, I turned and walked away. I couldn’t stand there and listen to any more of her doubts, not when I had so many of my own. I made my way down to the hospital’s genetics department, every step feeling heavier than the last.

By the time I reached the office, my heart was pounding in my chest, a relentless reminder of what was at stake.

The doctor was calm and professional, explaining the DNA test process as if it were just another routine test. But for me, it was anything but routine.

They took my blood, swabbed the inside of my cheek, and promised they’d have the results as soon as possible.

I spent those hours pacing the small waiting area, replaying everything in my head. I kept thinking about Stephanie’s face, the way she’d looked at me, so desperate for me to believe her.

And the baby with my eyes and my dimples. My heart clung to those details like they were a lifeline. But then I’d hear my mom’s voice in my head, telling me I was a fool for not seeing the truth.

Finally, the call came. I could barely hear the doctor’s voice over the roar of blood in my ears. But then the words cut through the noise: “The test confirms that you are the biological father.”

Relief hit me first, like a wave crashing over me, followed by guilt so sharp it made my breath catch. How could I have doubted her? How could I have let those seeds of suspicion take root in my mind?